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kehilangan yang tiada gantinya

assalamualaikum

where shud i start. ok on Sunday i and efendy buzy talking mcm2 la.pasl tu la ni la. sgt seronok ok. mcm dunia ni saya yg punya cehh pyo je..then mlm tu die nk tido awl.sbb early in the morning nk bertolak balik dari kedah to rawang. xpela.lg pon tolong2 kenduri his cousin.must be tired giler kan.the its ok la. sy pon tido jgk la.klu jge nk text ngn same kan.lg pon dh 11 pm mcm tu kowt.

but sudden bila terjaga pukul 6 tu.. peel biasa bila terjaga akan cek fon dulu.mne taw ade col or msg ke.then ade plak msg from him. ckp nk gerak da.on that time msg tu pkl 3.50 if im not mistaken la..terkejut la awl nye.terus msg tnye y sume..rupa nye anak buah dia meninggal dunia pukul 3 pagi td..innalillah.
terkejut sy.baru lst week or last 2 weeks jumpa anak buah die. Ketentuan Allah kan.kita x kan pernah menduga bila nk berlaku. hanya redha terima je la.

sedih memang sedih. kalau orang lain pon sedih ni kan pulak keluarga sendiri. i cant imagine how his family nk hadapi semua ni. but i believe dorng sume mampu. hnya amik mase la. n i really worried about him. i cnt sleep wlpun tertdo jgk la.tnpa sengaja. sedikit sebnyk rase la impak tu jgk. tapi i dnt know mcm nk mne nk tunjuk ataupun nk express. serius x taw..kalau kawan2 nangis ke hape.xtaw nk pujuk. i just let them clam sendiri je.sbb sy buat mcm tu.mybe they need time to rehat ke ape kan.

but i do feel loser sgt sbb i cnt release ur pain. or wat ever u feel now..useless nye rase. even i dnt know how to bg kate2 semngt ke hape.but i can be a good listener. mungkin lebih selesa bercerita dgn kawan rapat.. but i really hope that u will be fine soon..just take ur time darl.

i will alwys be there for you.